"Welcome to Holland" (1991)

1991 --

"Welcome to  Holland" ---

This story was the beginning of my change in perspective as I now changed course to see

the very beautiful, the very lovely things about my son.

When Joshua was about 8 years old, a friend of mine gave me a copy of a beautiful article called “Welcome to Holland” by Emily Perl Kingsley.  I loved it instantly.  I felt the connection to my situation and knew that I was focusing too much on what Joshua’s could not do, instead of focusing on what Joshua could do.  Yes, there were broken dreams, but this article gave greater hope and greater joy in new dreams.  This perspective was a huge help on the harder days to help me retain my focus on the very beautiful, the very lovely things about my son.

Welcome to Holland

By Emily Perl Kingsley

It’s like this . . .  When you’re going to have a child, it’s like planning a fabulous vacation trip - to Italy.  You buy a bunch of guidebooks and make your wonderful plans.  The Colosseum.  The Michelangelo David.  The gondolas in Venice.  You may learn some handy phrases in Italian.  It’s all very exciting.

After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives.  You pack your bags and off you go.  Several hours later, the plane lands.  The stewardess comes in and says, “Welcome to Holland.”

“Holland?!?” you say.  “What do you mean, Holland?  I signed up for Italy!  I’m supposed to be in Italy.  All my life I’ve dreamed of going to Italy.”

But there’s been a change in the flight plan.  You’ve landed in Holland and there you must stay.

The important thing is . . . they haven’t taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine, and disease.  It’s just a different place.

So you must go out and buy new guidebooks.  And you must learn a whole new language.  And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.

It’s just a different place.  But after you’ve been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around, and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills.  Holland has tulips.  Holland even has Rembrandts.

But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy, and they’re all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there.  And for the rest of your life, you will say, “Yes, that’s where I was supposed to go.  That’s what I had planned.”

But if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn’t get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things about Holland.

(Elaine L. Jack, "Grounded, Settled, and Full of Hope", Ensign, Mar. 1996, 19.)

The miracle and the realization of the countless very special, very lovely things about Joshua, and the discovery of these new guidebooks, "languages" and wonderful, compassionate and sensitive people was truly a beautiful journey of love.

My hope is that the many posts in this memory blog capture the incredible blessings and joys of my very special and beautiful son.

To read the continuation of my journey to find Holland, click the following links:

http://joshuasheartfullofhugs.blogspot.com/2013/04/1991-2005-finding-holland-my-broken.html

http://joshuasheartfullofhugs.blogspot.com/2013/05/1991-2005-finding-holland-continued-so.html