"Remember Joshua's Encouragement"

Jeremy ... Jacob ... Janson

"Remember Joshua's Encouragement"

Miracle at LDS General Conference

On Sunday, April 3, 2016, my beautiful daughter, Jamie Eisenstat, was making her debut in the Mormon Tabernacle Choir!  Well, this was so exciting for all of us!  Jamie had worked so hard, and although auditions for the Choir are extremely rigorous and demanding, she made it!  I was looking so forward to this special day to see her at General Conference and completely joy in the thrill of her performance with this incredible Mormon Tabernacle Choir!

My handsome sons, Jeremy, Jacob and Janson were there with me, which is always extra special.  As a single Mom, I always love this precious Mom time no matter how old they are!!  And through my wonderful friend Kristy, we had seats on the 9th row!!  In fact, we laughed because when we picked up our tickets, we were told, "oh ... YOU have the red tickets."  We didn't know what that meant.  But they joked that we would need an escort to our seats.  Well, we basically did!  We kept walking closer and closer to the front, and there we were -- in the middle, 9th row back!  We could see everything so clearly!

I cried tears of joy as Jamie walked to her seat with the Choir!  This was incredibly special and such a joyous Mom moment.  I was sitting with my boys, supporting Jamie and I was so thankful.

And we were close enough to see her so well!  And she could see us!!  This moment cannot be adequately described it was so incredibly wonderful and special!!

Jamie was beautiful.  Her countenance was filled with light!  I am still in awe and gratitude for this wonderful blessing in her life, and all of her lives!


But I always have a little sadness in my heart that all of my children will never be all together on these special occasions.  So on this very special day, I prayed in my heart, that I would feel Joshua with us today.

The second to last speaker was Elder Paul V. Johnson titled "And There Shall Be No More Death."  He spoke tenderly and lovingly of his daughter Alisa who died of cancer.  His words were powerful and hopeful.  I thought of my Joshua, of my Dad and the great hope that they are whole, happy and we will see them again.  He said:

I am grateful for the blessings that are ours because of the Atonement and Resurrection of the Lord Jesus Christ. For all who have laid a child in a grave or wept over the casket of a spouse or grieved over the death of a parent or someone they loved, the Resurrection is a source of great hope. What a powerful experience it will be to see them again—not just as spirits but with resurrected bodies.

https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2016/04/and-there-shall-be-no-more-death?lang=eng


The final speaker is a favorite, Elder Jeffrey R. Holland.  He spoke about looking at the audience, and that became very personal that day!  I truly felt like he saw all 4 of us, on the 9th row and that he somehow knew us!  And then he gave us all a great and powerful pep talk on perseverance, and faith, and miracles!  He is so inspiring and powerful.   Part of the way through his talk, he stated:

 Keep loving. Keep trying. Keep trusting. Keep believing. Keep growing. 
Heaven is cheering you on 
today, tomorrow, and forever.

(We have Joshua and my Dad cheering us on!!)

And then to become even more personal, he further stated:

If gospel standards seem high and the personal improvement needed in the days ahead seems out of reach, remember Joshua’s encouragement to his people when they faced a daunting future. “Sanctify yourselves,” he said, “for to morrow the Lord will do wonders among you.”  I declare that same promise. It is the promise of this conference. It is the promise of this Church. It is the promise of Him who performs those wonders, who is Himself “Wonderful, Counsellor, The mighty God, ... The Prince of Peace.”  Of Him I bear witness. Of Him I am a witness. And to Him this conference stands as a testament of His ongoing work in this great latter day. In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

Left

It was as if I could hear Joshua saying those words of encouragement personally to me.  And saying "I love you Mom.  I am aware of your heartaches and struggles.  And I am here for you."  Joshua's understanding of the plan of salvation and the promises of eternity are beyond my comprehension now and I know Joshua really is cheering me and my whole family on!  I felt a greater faith and joy at the promises of miracles and blessings.  I am so very, very thankful for this personal blessing and power of Elder Holland's words, and the incredible miracle of feeling all 5 of my beautiful children together that special day.




https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2016/04/tomorrow-the-lord-will-do-wonders-among-you?lang=eng

"Like a Broken Vessel" by Elder Jeffrey R. Holland

"Like a Broken Vessel"

by Elder Jeffrey R. Holland

A Favorite General Conference Talk

The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints

There were a few times in Joshua's life when I caught a quick but powerful glimpse of him as "normal".  These moments did not last long but left an impression and influence on me to think of what he will be someday, and what he already is in heaven.  I love who Joshua was, even in his disabled mind and body, because I felt like he served and loved all he could with these limited capacities.

In fact, Joshua showed us how to love and live time and time again because the most important things to him were family, friends and service.  He LOVED saying hi and hugging people.  He loved trying to help - even when his efforts actually made more work.  (But I didn't tell him that and he wouldn't have understand that anyway.)  But he was so full of joy when he helped others.  He was the epitome of pure charity and love.

This amazing and inspiring talk has brought me much comfort.  I can picture my incredible son Joshua, already perfect, completely whole and healed, with his outstretched hands of love and joy.  That's who Joshua was in this life, and I will cry tears of joy to see him again someday, perfected, but still serving and loving with that same pure charity and love.

And Elder Holland also spoke so compassionately and eloquently to other emotional challenges and heartaches in this life.  He gives perspective and hope and love.

Thank you Elder Holland for this beautiful testimony.

#generalconference

For the entire talk, here is the link:

https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2013/10/like-a-broken-vessel?lang=eng

"Lord I Believe" - Elder Jeffrey R. Holland

"Lord, I Believe"

Elder Jeffrey R. Holland

April 2013

A Favorite General Conference Talk

The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints

This talk, given in the April 2013 General Conference as noted above spoke straight to my heart as Elder Holland spoke about the daily struggles and challenges of raising a child with disabilities.  The beauty of the love given by our Savior in his understanding, compassion and hope for healing, are there for each one of us in our individual and unique heartaches, challenges and struggles.  In reading these words, I know the Savior knew the depth of my fear, heartache and fatigue in dealing with Joshua's epilepsy and his seizures that were so very frightening and harmful.  I know we had more help than I realized, and am so thankful for pure love and compassion from His loving arms.

Joshua literally did fall into the water symbolically and literally and into the fire symbolically anytime he had a seizure.  Some of the most frightening seizures were in the bathtub or the pool.  Each of the kids helped during those times as I would have to call for help because I needed strength beyond my own.  I specifically remember a time when my daughter, Jamie, helped me hold Joshua up out of the water when he had a seizure in about 4 feet of water when we were swimming.  We both used all her strength to get him through that seizure so he would not drown.  Jamie's strength and determination were inspiring and such a blessing.  I also know I was given strength beyond my own spiritually as I could never have kept Joshua safe without the love and strength of my Savior, Jesus Christ.

Here are my favorite words, with the link of the full text of the talk below.

With no other hope remaining, this father asserts what faith he has and pleads with the Savior of the world, “If thou canst do any thing, have compassion on us, and help us.” I can hardly read those words without weeping. The plural pronoun us is obviously used intentionally. This man is saying, in effect, “Our whole family is pleading. Our struggle never ceases. We are exhausted. Our son falls into the water. He falls into the fire. He is continually in danger, and we are continually afraid. We don’t know where else to turn. Can you help us? We will be grateful for anything—a partial blessing, a glimmer of hope, some small lifting of the burden carried by this boy’s mother every day of her life.”

“If thou canst do any thing,” spoken by the father, comes back to him “If thou canst believe,” spoken by the Master.

“Straightway,” the scripture says—not slowly nor skeptically nor cynically but “straightway”—the father cries out in his unvarnished parental pain, “Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief.” In response to new and still partial faith, Jesus heals the boy, almost literally raising him from the dead, as Mark describes the incident.

^{For the entire text of the talk, go to:}

https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2013/04/lord-i-believe?lang=eng