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Monday, January 27, 2014

Helmet of Salvation

Joshua's Helmet of Salvation
Just like one hard seizure could cause Joshua an injury that would take weeks or months of healing, one decision or choice could cause short or long-term harmful effects in our lives and in the lives of others.

Joshua’s battle with seizures seemed like a constant war between safety and injury.  For protection from the injuries from his grand mal seizures, Joshua began wearing a helmet.  His first helmet was a typical skateboard helmet which protected his head only.  As the seizures worsened, he needed a helmet with even more protection, yet allowed him to eat.  We began searching and searching for just the right helmet and tried several that did not work.  Joshua’s Aunt Debbie Anderson also searched hard and found a downhill biker’s helmet by GYRO with a very secure jaw piece that jutted out past his chin.  Although Joshua aggressively fought wearing this helmet by hitting and banging, we lovingly, very firmly and consistently, put this new GYRO helmet on from the time he woke up until he went to bed (with the exception of a few times when he could safely sit without fear of injury).  Joshua intensely disliked his helmet, but because his fine motor skills were so low, he was not able to undo the strap which held the helmet secure.  This was a blessing!

Joshua’s resistance to this helmet is very symbolic of the “helmet of salvation” referenced in the New Testament.  In Ephesians 6:11-17 we are told to “put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.”  Joshua’s helmet was able to lessen the extremely harmful effects of his seizures with the protection the helmet gave his head.  Before Joshua’s helmet, at 6 foot 1 inch, he would fall like a tree straight down at the onset of a seizure.  There was no warning for him or for us.  We were able to catch him so many times.  But for those times that we weren’t quite fast enough, we could not always catch him and he had multiple gashes in his head and chin, broken teeth and two broken jaws.  After Joshua started wearing his helmet, he would still fall down hard from a seizure, but his new helmet saved him numerous times when we were unable to catch him. 

God has given us the helmet of salvation for our spiritual protection.  As we strive to do God’s will and understand His plan for us, we, like Joshua, can find ourselves resistive to putting on the armour of God.  When we do this and resist the protection of the helmet of salvation, it is easy to make wrong choices, to go against the plan of God, and to then fall down hard and face devastating and harmful consequences.  Just like one hard seizure could cause Joshua an injury that would take weeks or months of healing, one decision or choice could cause short or long-term harmful effects in our lives and in the lives of others.

We can remember and think of Joshua and his resistance to his helmet, because he did not have the knowledge or understanding of the safety the helmet provided for him.  We can then look to God and trust in His commandments and His guidance to help us choose the right path, knowing that He always does what is best for us, even when we may not understand, for our learning and growth, which will bring us joy and lead us back to live with Him someday.
The beauty of his smile in this picture shows Joshua's peace, his joy and his security even though the helmet was tough.  His smile symbolizes the joy of his very special journey.

Saturday, January 25, 2014

A Thank You to My Kids!

A Thank You to My Kids!
Thank you to my amazing and loving children for showing the power of pure love and sacrifice every day for a brother they loved with all of their hearts. I love you so much and am truly blessed to be your Mom!



Thank You Jeremy!  For being the best "big" brother Joshua could ever ask for.

Thank you for sharing a room with him your whole life together!

Thank you for loving him even when he hit you.

Thank you for sharing my sorrow when he was injured during seizures.

Thank you for helping him through his seizures.

Thank you for helping with his diapers and baths.  You got wet in more ways than one!

Thank you for cruising with Joshua and meeting cute girls.



Thank you Jamie for making Joshua laugh.

Thank you for loving him even when he threw your stuffed animals over the fence.

Thank you for getting strong enough to lift him up on your own.

Thank you for pushing him in the wheelchair.

Thank you for helping me with seizures at home, in the bathtub and at the pool.

Thank you for taking him for rides on his two-seater bike.





 Thank you Jacob for making Joshua laugh after a hard seizure.

Thank you for playing outside and at the park with Joshua.

Thank you for giving him hugs even when he hit you.

Thank you for learning how to help with seizures.

Thank you for helping him with t-ball and being happy when he hit the ball.

Thank you for loving your brother with all of your heart.





Thank you Janson for being so much younger and not being scared.

Thank you for helping him play t-ball.

Thank you for making him laugh after his seizures.

Thank you for riding down neighbor's driveways on skateboards with him.

Thank you for helping with his seizures.

Thank you for loving him so much that your heart hurt so much when he died.



Thank you to my amazing and loving children for showing the power of pure love and sacrifice every day for a brother they loved with all of their hearts.  I love you so much and am truly blessed to be your Mom!















Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Treasured Memorabilia - Barney the Dinosaur and More

Treasured Memorabilia
 
A video tape to bring a smile of remembrance of Joshua holding tightly to his beloved video tape one moment,
and then throwing it far across the room the next moment!


One of many video tapes carried by Joshua wherever he went.  It was his "security blanket" and we have purchased countless tapes because they would eventually be thrown in the grocery store aisle, over a fence, or across the parking lot.  Joshua did not understand when they would break and would no longer go in the VCR.  He did know his name was written on it, and he did know that favorite movies or shows were right in his precious hand!

A typical picture of Joshua holding tightly to his video tape while being hugged by his brother, Jacob.


 

 

 
 A favorite Barney book because we could insert Joshua's picture -- he loved this!
 
 
 
 Selma met Barney at Universal Studios - this was a sweet moment.  I wish Joshua could have been there!



 
Joshua's backpack made especially for him - he loved baseball!
 
 
 

His own baseball - just don't be too close when he throws it!




"Happy Birthday" bowling pins from his friends and family.  Joshua was the epitome of excitement, even for a gutter ball, jumping up and down, clapping and cheering!
 
 

 
Joshua's treasured plastic orange bat.  Anyone standing close by also loved this bat
as it hurt way less than a wooden bat when it was thrown by Joshua!


Monday, January 20, 2014

Adventures in Church - Page 3 - Single Mom Moments

1,101 Church Meetings -- Page 3
Single Mom Moments

The slaps on my back seemed to reverberate throughout the chapel. 
I could hear people’s verbal reaction through shocking gasps.
Through our attendance at church, I was truly blessed by the kindness and service of those around us.  It was extremely difficult to bring five children to church alone as a single mom.  The younger children were probably not very reverent, but seemed fairly quiet compared to Joshua.  My heart rejoices with gratitude and awe as I remember kindness after kindness, week after week.  I wish I could recount every experience and thank every person.  I can only say that each act of kindness touched me deeply and helped me more than I could ever express.  I know that it was not an easy thing to willingly and readily run over to help an adult child who was having severe aggressive outbursts, or a grand mal seizure.  Not only was this Christlike service displayed so perfectly, but the validation given to me in these moments of hardship, lifted and carried me throughout Joshua’s life.  I was always deeply touched and appreciative, as I cannot imagine getting through these times alone.  As I recount the next few experiences, I hope that those who have come to my rescue during many similar experiences, will know that I am personally thanking and acknowledging them as well.  These few words that I write cannot begin to hold all of the compassion, love and service given to me throughout Joshua’s life. 






Joshua had many seizures in church, and some were minor seizures, and others were grand mal seizures.  I continue to be touched as I recall men jumping up to immediately help me at the beginning of those seizures.  It sometimes took up to four of us to carry Joshua out, and lay him in a safe place as he finished going through the seizures.  I was not left alone during the seizure or after the seizure as sometimes it took quite a while for Joshua’s aggression to stop after some of the harder seizures.  I felt like angels were surrounding me during those times of compassion and selfless sacrifice.





During another Sacrament Meeting, our Stake President was giving a talk, when suddenly Joshua erupted into a very severe aggressive behavior episode.  He was making loud noises and beating me on the back very hard with his hand.  The slaps on my back seemed to reverberate throughout the chapel.  I could hear people’s verbal reaction through shocking gasps.  I know that those times were difficult and surprising to those who had never seen an autistic child act out so violently.  I was once again touched when Donnie Williams (who was sitting on the stand), quickly helped me by carrying Joshua quickly out into the hallway.  I knew that this day was particularly hard when later that day a kind friend at church, Janet Merrill, showed up with a delicious dinner for the whole family.  Another friend, Shanna Taylor, brought over a yummy dessert a little later.  I knew that spoke volumes on how hard Joshua had been at church that day. I lovingly, but jokingly, told Joshua that he must have been extra hard at church today if we even got dinner and dessert out of it!!






There have been many Sundays when I felt I had given too many apologies, was exhausted, and felt like I couldn’t bring Joshua one more time, and interrupt one more talk, throw one more program, or hit one more person, etc. I did go home one time in the middle of a church meeting and cried. I have cried out of frustration, out of lack of knowledge and out of pain for the situation. But then I was reminded of the goodness of people as I received blessings each and every Sunday I attended church. A visitor to the church tapped me on the shoulder expressing sincere, kind and compassionate words of encouragement and praise. Loving friends stepped up to help over and over with strong hands and beautiful smiles. A kind and sensitive teenager brought us cookies after church.  The list goes on and on.





One of my favorite moments in church was when I walked by the door of priesthood meetings  and could count on seeing the service and love of the priesthood brethren for Joshua in various ways.  Sometimes Joshua would happily be sitting in the front with the bishopric.  Other times I could see one of the brethren helping him in the congregation by sitting next to him, chatting with him, or helping him with whatever he needed at that moment.  Evan Frederickson was there many times for Joshua, and took it upon himself, week after week, to be Joshua’s helper and special friend.






Another day, Joshua had found his way up to the choir seats during the Primary portion of the church meetings.  The chapel was full of primary children and their leaders.  Joshua was in a very stubborn mood and was determined to stay up in those choir seats.  This might have been fine if he was sitting still and behaving himself, but he most certainly was not.  Joshua was wandering all over the choir seats, and throwing hymnbooks.  The more I would try to get him off the stands, the harder he became.  Since at this time he was over 6 feet tall, and very strong, it seemed a near impossible task.  I knew that he was disrupting the primary meeting, and was concerned about what to do.  Within a short time, a member of the bishopric, Kyle Fuller, came up to help me get Joshua out of the chapel.  He was followed shortly after by the rest of the bishopric, Donnie Williams, and Bishop Brian Jensen.  After much struggle and difficulty, and physical effort, we finally got Joshua out into the hallway.  Exhausted and embarrassed, I couldn’t help but say to Joshua that he was so hard that day, that it took three men to help me!  Then these three kind and compassionate men sent me off to my church class with the promise and assurance that they would be taking care of Joshua.  I felt their complete concern and charity for Joshua, and sacrifice for me, so that I could have a few moment to myself, and enjoy the teachings of the gospel.  I will always be so appreciative of this sweet experience.  In a letter to my missionary son, Jeremy, dated May 31, 2004, I recounted the experience as follows:  I had an answer to prayer yesterday at Church.  The last time I taken Joshua to Church he was very hard.  But then again, that was “normal.”  I had arrived at Church 10 minutes before it started, and Joshua had gotten into the Chapel and run up to the Choir seats (where Primary Opening Exercises was) and it had taken over 30 minutes to get him down (along with a few hymnbooks being thrown, etc.), with the help of two of the Bishopric members.  Then we were in the hall for 10 minutes or so, and the entire Bishopric was helping to calm him down, and then they sent me to Relief Society for the last 20 minutes.  Then we went through a similar routine for Sunday School, and then Sacrament Meeting he was very disruptive, and not only was passing out and collecting hymnbooks, but throwing them as well.  Well, I was obviously very worried about taking him to Church again, and when I prayed I asked Heavenly Father to help Joshua at Church, to help me know what to do, to help us to have a better experience.  Well, Joshua only took a few minutes to get into Priesthood Meeting (he walked right in and sat in the front where the Bishopric sits, but they didn’t mind), and Sunday School only took about 5 minutes using the rolling chair, and then in Sacrament Meeting, although he was still passing out and collecting hymnbooks, it was much calmer, and there was no throwing.  So I was very thankful for this much calmer day.







I Love my Mommy!

“I Love My Mommy”
Manti, Utah - January 18, 2014
 
 I could just picture my own Joshua hugging me and saying “I love my mommy.” 

Selma & Craig - Manti, Utah
 
A few days ago, I was in Manti, Utah with my husband, Craig.  We had just met a wonderful couple and were chatting with them, when a handsome adult man with Down Syndrome walked up. It was so fun to meet him and talk with him.  And then he made my day because this handsome young man went over and hugged his mom and said to me "I love my mommy." What a special guy!!!  What a beautiful moment.  

I could just picture my own Joshua hugging me and saying “I love my mommy.”  I know he would if he could.

And I know that this mom knew and felt the blessings every day of having such a precious and beautiful son.

Thursday, January 9, 2014

Rootbeer Macaroni

Rootbeer Macaroni

the day I discovered an ink pen in the milk,
I knew I had to really be careful before pouring milk and drinking it



Rootbeer macaroni:  a most interesting blend of Kraft Macaroni & Cheese blended with melted butter and cheese, and, . . . a large swig of rootbeer!! 


Joshua was quite excited to help in the kitchen.  Most little children love macaroni and cheese, and  Joshua was no different.  His favorite items to add to the macaroni and cheese – a can of rootbeer!  I suppose he thought the macaroni and cheese was too plain, because he would then happily eat the rootbeer macaroni!  I wish I could remember in detail each and every item he has added to my cooking to help “spice” it up a little.  I could probably have created my own unique cookbook.  It most certainly would have been a comedy!  We just had to be aware of any open can, open packet  or any opened item that was around when there were large open pots, pans and bowls being prepared.  Joshua loved to help cook!

Of course, there was always the yummy Oreo cookies that tasted even better to Joshua when they were dipped in . . . ketchup!

Joshua loved to be helpful, especially in the kitchen area.  I remember realizing that the kitchen was to be affected by our little cyclone when I came in the kitchen one day and he had gotten out a box of cereal and even opened it!  Joshua had also gotten a small bowl out of the cupboard and was pouring the entire full box of cereal into this very small bowl.  Very quickly, before I had time to stop him, 95 percent of the cereal was on the counter or on the floor, but this did not stop the huge smile on Joshua’s face as he cheerfully said “I did it!”  What a lesson in accomplishment.  Joshua could only see the five percent success, instead of the ninety-five percent failure.  I still feel bad because at that time I tried to help Joshua learn to pour cereal the correct way by telling him “no” and taking the bowl and cereal box and putting them away.  I then cleaned up the cereal and made a little boy very sad.  This happened several times over the next few weeks..  To go along with this, Joshua was suddenly trying to also poor milk out of the one gallon plastic carton into a small glass, and unfortunately, milk is much more difficult to clean up than dry cereal!  It seemed that the more I tried to dissuade him from these two new accomplishments of his, the harder he tried!  A few weeks later, I was having a conference with his teachers at school.  They were particularly excited because they had been working with Joshua on his “self-help” skills and they had taught him how to pour various items from boxes and cartons!!!  I laughed to myself, thought back over the past month and told them the battle that had been going on and home, and then school.  At home I was saying “no, no, no” and at school the teachers were saying “yes, yes, yes.”  We decided to continue allowing him to learn how to pour, but because of his inability to stop pouring, the next step would be for him to learn limits and to work on understanding how to stop!  Joshua did learn how to partially “stop,” although not always in a very timely manner.  He was very pleased with himself as he would proudly call out “stop” as the cereal was rapidly pouring over the sides of the bowl!

 

Five years later, Joshua was almost self-sufficient in the task of pouring himself a bowl of cereal.  That may seem like a very long time, but when I compared it to the fact that I didn’t think he could learn how to pour his own cereal, this was really quite an accomplishment.  During those five years, Joshua had grown in height, so much that he could reach the cereal (which had been placed on the top shelf), reach the bowls in the cupboard and take the cap off the milk.  The trick was to make sure the gallon of milk was less than half full which gave a lower probability of milk being spilled everywhere.  Joshua learned to really concentrate on watching the cereal and/or milk being poured into the bowl.  The spills lessened, but they certainly never completely went away.

The problems didn’t stop at milk overflowing from a small bowl.  Other interesting things happened, however, once he learned to unscrew the milk cap off the milk!  Not only is it fun to pour milk out of the carton, but it is also very fun to put unknown items into the carton.  One day I was pouring milk, and as the milk was coming out into my glass, I noticed the milk was lumpy.  On further observance, I realized there was cold cereal all throughout this almost full gallon of milk. It didn’t strike me at first as to who might have done this (with several other small children, one really never knows).  But then another day, one of the children was pouring a different carton of milk into their cereal and macaroni and cheese was now coming right out of that gallon of milk.  We then began to watch more closely and were not surprised to find the culprit – Joshua!  He was putting any small item he could find into milk cartons!  And he was very proud of himself for this great accomplishment!  And it certainly was a great accomplishment for Joshua as his fine motor skills had been weak.  It had been very difficult for Joshua to pick up small items with his fingers.  What a great place of learning and accomplishment the kitchen had become for Joshua.

The cereal in the milk didn’t necessarily ruin the milk.  However, the day I discovered an ink pen in the milk, I knew I had to really be careful before pouring milk and drinking it.

One of my most memorable Mexican dinners was when I found salsa in the Italian dressing and enchiladas in the milk.  I should have opened my own restaurant and called it “Joshua’s Cocina.”

The pouring of milk and other items was always a reward, and a challenge.  Things were quiet in the kitchen one day as I was working on homework with my kindergarten son.  Upon entering the kitchen, however, I could see that Joshua’s hands had been busy at work.  The entire contents of the half-gallon of juice that had been in the refrigerator was now empty.  I could see the glass that Joshua had been working on, for it was completely full to the brim, and in fact had overflowed onto the counter, onto the sides of the counter which was next to the stove, thus going onto the floor and underneath the stove.  I envisioned the mess under the stove immediately as extra crumbs and toys are always pushed under the stove!  But then I noticed a long trail of juice on the other side of the counter.  At first it did not look too bad, but as I began cleaning this (because it looked like the easier of the two messes) I realized that the juice had made its way under every appliance and decoration along that wall.  The juice was under the can opener, the “juicer” (how appropriate), the scented candle (and other decoration items), the dried flower picture, the bread maker, the mini boom box radio, and even a children’s reading book was soaking in the juice!  It’s truly amazing how much juice can come out of one half-gallon carton.  After I cleaned the counter and each and every soaked item, I then tackled the other counter and moved out the stove and spent the next little while cleaning the sides of the stove and then under the stove with its juice soaked crumbs and toys.  The blessing in all of this was that I had an extremely clean kitchen.

Joshua also loved to help make sandwiches.  The problem was that sometimes the bread had to be swung like a baseball bat before use.  I can still picture my Joshua boy, holding the bread like a baseball bat, then calling out “one, two, three” and then enthusiastically swinging that baseball bat bread around.  Sometimes he would even strike out.  Needless to say, the bread didn’t look quite the same after the batter finished hitting the air.  The next step would be to add mayonnaise and cheese.  It was then also amusing to pick up the stack of sandwich cheese, and see one clean bite, all the way down the entire stack of cheese.  There was no doubt that Joshua had found that stack of cheese, and clearly thought that the best way to have a piece of cheese, was just to bite clean through every single piece.  This was a blessing that he could even find himself something to eat, all on his own.  I would love picking up a stack of sandwich cheese again, with that one clean bite all the way through.

Joshua also loved to help give me things while I was baking.  The item that made me the most nervous were eggs right out of the carton.  Although Joshua had no concept on how fragile eggs could be, I certainly did.  And I had to be extremely patient and encouraging as Joshua would take an egg out of the carton and hand it over to me.  He was very excited and enthusiastic with this new accomplishment.  And I was excited when the egg came to me whole.

While most of these things were easy to laugh at, the real danger came when Joshua became interested in the oven.  He did not turn the oven on himself (thankfully), but the minute I turned the oven to begin cooking dinner or dessert, I would have to very carefully be on guard for any items thrown in.  I learned this the hard way one day when something was cooking in the oven.  As there was still time left before it was done, I went outside and was chatting with my neighbor.  Shortly after, Joshua came running outside and seemed upset and excited.  I could tell he was trying to tell me something but I couldn’t understand what he was saying.  Thankfully I went inside the house because I quickly realized there was a kitchen towel inside the oven and it was on fire!  I was able to put out the fire, and take a very strong note of the fact that I needed to stay close by once the oven was on, as Joshua would most definitely throw things in the oven again. 

Because Joshua loved to help, and truly believed he was helping, we continued to praise him, especially when he chose the right item to pour in whatever was currently cooking, or when he stopped pouring the juice or milk before it reached the top of the glass or bowl.

 

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Adventures in Church - Page 2

1,101 Church Meetings -- Page 2
A Natural Greeter

We took the boot back very humbly and graciously, and then quickly returned it to its rightful owner,
and then kept an even closer eye at those unknown objects around us.
 




 


A typical picture of my parents, 5 of my 12 siblings -
and my dad holding tight to Joshua at church so he wouldn't run away











Attending Church was always an interesting experience for us and anyone who happened to be sitting near us. In fact, every Sunday was an experience. We could expect the usual occurrences to happen such as a crayon being thrown down the aisle, the notebook being thrown to the seat of the person in front of us, my open purse being tossed to the ground, my earring being thrown across the chapel and hymn books regularly given to anyone in sight. And then if no one would take a hymn book, then the hymn book was thrown to the next unsuspecting person (Evelyn Harris will remember this!). We were always ready for these “usual”occurrences. It was when the unusual object or unsuspecting person got involved that we had some “unique”experiences.
 



When Joshua was about 10 years old, as we sat in the chapel things seemed to be going fairly well.  I was trying to keep Joshua calm while trying to listen to the speaker, when without warning a child’s cowboy boot went flying high up into the air and then proceeded to land somewhere behind us.  I remember thinking the innocent thought that I was glad that was not my child’s boot.  I soon realized that it didn’t matter that it was not my child’s boot, because everyone else thought it was my child’s boot.  Joshua had somehow found it and thrown that boot clear up into the air!  A moment later, some fingers tapped my shoulder whispering that here was our boot back!!  Apparently, the child in front of us had gotten his cowboy boot off, and Joshua (with his usual keen eye) had spied it and couldn’t help but toss it gleefully high into the air.  We took the boot back very humbly and graciously, and then quickly returned it to its rightful owner, and then kept an even closer eye at those unknown objects around us.








I could quickly tell if someone didn’t quite understand Joshua’s situation by their reaction to his noisiness in church.  This was a challenge as  I learned to react in such a way as to help them understand.  For example, one day as Joshua was his usually noisy and busy self in church, the lady in front of us handed him some hard candy lifesavers and told Joshua that he could have these candies if he would be quiet in church.  I kindly explained the situation, and also needed to let her know that Joshua could not eat hard candies as he could easily choke on them.  Any hard candy or gum was very dangerous to Joshua as he had no concept of their use, and would most likely have to tried to swallow them.







Another day I was sitting in the overall flow area at the back of the chapel, and several rows in front of the Bickmore family.  At the time we had three children and I was sitting alone with them.  The Bickmore family also had three young children and had the usual struggles a family has with young children at Church.  But the usual struggle with my younger children combined with Joshua’s usual tendencies of trying to run and get away, throwing things, hitting, aggressions and making noise, caused the father, Jack Bickmore, to whisper to me to send Joshua back to him.  I was hesitant of course, because they already had their own young children to deal with, but he was sincere and I certainly did need the help, so I held Joshua’s hand as he walked back to sit with the Bickmore family.  As I then sat with my other two children, enjoying the peace for a moment, suddenly a child raced quickly past me, heading straight to the front of the chapel.  It took just a few seconds to realize that this child was Joshua!  I looked quickly back at Jack, as Joshua continued his run down the aisle, and whispered “you get him!”  And Jack did.  We had to laugh afterward because this was one example of other people getting use to just how quickly Joshua could get away and run and run and run....
 






My friend Amanda told me one day that she liked to sit near us at church because then her twin toddler girls were much quieter, as they loved to watch Joshua in his big yellow helmet, as he stood up and down, shaking hands with those around him and saying a loud "hi" right in the middle of the meeting and generally staying very active and busy throughout the meeting.  Amanda’s words made my day that my noisy son could help twin toddler girls to stay quiet.  An unforeseen blessing for sure!







One Sunday, my friend Margaret loved to recount and laugh about.  Joshua was once again exhibiting some aggressive and loud behaviors in church.  I struggled to get him out of the chapel, and just was I was exiting the door, Joshua turned around while holding his coveted hymnbook, and gleefully tossed that hymnbook right back into the chapel.   Margaret said that the look of glee on Joshua’s face was priceless as he truly and happily loved throwing that hymnbook in his last moment in the chapel that day.



 
 


Sunday, January 5, 2014

Field of Dreams

Our own "Field of Dreams"
Adapted T-Ball Begins - 1998


That first season was so magical! 
 We had about 64 children sign up from ages 5 to 22, and created 8 teams. 
We called our beautiful grass area at Westmore Elementary School our “Field of Dreams.” 



Helping Joshua run to his base!
As Joshua’s Mom, I was always looking for ways Joshua could participate in “normal” activities. When we moved to the Salt Lake area, he was old enough for sports.  Since he loved running, throwing, and he loved balls, t-ball seemed just the thing.  Miraculously, there was an adapted t-ball in Salt Lake City which I eagerly signed him up for.  This was a special league of player with disabilities from throughout the valley, and we had a great time.  Joshua did have to be watched particularly close, since he often could be seen running straight out to Centerfield, toward the street! The coaches were kind, loving and patient with him.  

Jumping to Uncle Mark while playing outfield!


In 1995 we moved to Utah County.  Shortly after our move I started looking for adapted leagues in our new area but could not find any.  I started contacting various sports directors in cities throughout Utah County to ask if they would consider beginning an adapted t-ball league.  Working part-time, and raising 5 children at this time, didn’t always give me the time to do this, but finally I got a yes!!  Mark Lindsay, director at Orem Recreation, asked me to come in to his office and give a presentation.  I quickly organized some pictures and information from the Salt Lake City league and met with Mark.

Giving Joshua a high-five when he reaches home plate

We had a great first meeting!  Under Mark’s leadership and expertise, the first adapted t-ball league of Utah County was organized in May of 1998!

That first season was so magical!  We had about 64 children sign up from ages 5 to 22, and created 8 teams.  We called our beautiful grass area at Westmore Elementary School our “Field of Dreams.”  I was honored to the coach of Joshua’s team and loved every single minute!!  The players had various disabilities , various levels of playing, various attention spans and beautiful faces!!  

Joy and love overflowed in abundance every Saturday at our Field of Dreams.


I loved every minute of my 8 years as the Adapted T-Ball Coach for Orem Recreation.





Joshua's 1st TBall Trophy - 1998
Deseret News Article
"A big homerun from the heart"
Published: Tuesday, June 30 1998 12:00 a.m. MDT

The pitcher tagged the runner, but the player made it to first base anyway, grinning all the way.

The girl racing to third base overshot the mark and inadvertently made it to home plate, passing up her teammate standing resolutely on third.But that's all right. Nobody minds.

In fact, what's important at the T-ball games for the Orem Handicapped Youth League isn't a rule or a score.

It's love and kindness and joy.

You can see it in the faces all over the field. The coaches, planted strategically at every base and critical points in between, are as thrilled as the players when a smacked ball flies over the right fielder's head. They're more than happy when a player on the opposing team makes a nice play that theoretically puts one of their players out.

The parents are exultant as kids who rarely get an opportunity to succeed make a home run.

The players are just plain having fun.

"It's so much fun, now we're going for a soccer and a basketball league," said Selma Eisenstat.
Eisenstat is the parental force behind the creation of the handicapped T-ball league. She mentioned the idea to Orem recreation wellness manager Mark Lindsay last fall because she wanted her son, Joshua, to have a place to play.

"In Salt Lake, we usually had 30 in the league," Eisenstat said.

"Here, we've had more kids than we thought we would. We're up to 68 kids and eight teams."

The league plays every Saturday morning at Westmore Elementary between 9 and 11 a.m. on two fields. Players are between the ages of 5 and 18.

They pay $25 to register. That covers the cost of providing staff and equipment, T-shirts, team pictures and a 5-inch individual trophy for participation.

Some are physically handicapped. One uses a walker to run the bases. Others, like Eisenstat's son, are autistic or hyperactive. All of them need the emotional and physical outlet the games provide.

"We don't let them strike out," Eisenstat said. "We don't keep score."

Eisenstat said the kids really seem to be enjoying the entire exercise.

"One kid picked me up when he made the base," she said. "It's very inspirational, a lot of hugs and high-fives."

"I just want it to keep going."

Lindsay says the success of the program's first year will very probably lead to the initiation of other programs.

"There's nothing like this in Utah County," he said. "We've had a handicapped child in the regular teams but not a strictly adapted handicapped program."

Lindsay said the response to the program has surprised him.

"To be honest, I didn't know what to expect when Selma first approached me about this," Lindsay
said. "We'd never done anything like this."

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